Fat Boy

Song information

Australia
2020

"Fat Boy"
Rainbow Orbit

Music & Lyrics: Phil McNulty

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Lyrics

That was me: the awkward, freckled fat boy
Except I wasn't everything I thought I was, it's just what I perceived
Standing in the shadows, awaiting liberty
Never thought to ask for love, I just wanted to be... worthy

I gave myself away, a thousand times or maybe more
I never found an answer, in revolving doors
Was too far, I didn't drink and party like the cool ones
I dyed the orange out and tried to hide my tears

I'm sorry, dearest fat boy
I never could protect you from the world you fell into
I took on all the barbs
I let them all manipulate the way I felt for you

I'm looking in the mirror
See the way that years have eaten into everything that might have been
I still ache, but nothing can reverse time
Nothing takes away the throbbing heartbeat of that lonely boy who wanted to be...
Worthy

I'm sorry, dearest fat boy
I never could protect you from the world you fell into
I took on all the barbs
I let them all manipulate the way I felt for you
I never will forget, sitting in the thunderstorm and wishing it would end
I still feel low sometimes. I hope I made you proud. Somehow.